Tuesday, April 6, 2010 Capt. Athan;
11:15 PM
Stardate 100406.11
Incoming transmission.....
[Hey y'all. Gonna update me blog again. Remember a few posts back, I said I was attracted to totally unreachable girls, one of 'em being Debra? Well, another one would be miss Rachel M. I am seriously killing myself here. I don't know why I'm drawn to them. All I know about Rae is that she's a beautiful, inteligent, and strong girl. Maybe it's just hormones, or puberty, or something that I don't know what, but I find her VERY attractive. I know I'm committing suicide by saying this, but damned if I don't, damned if I do. This is my blog and I will decide what to post and what not to.
I was reviewing my memories and everytime a memory about Debra came up, Rachel is always in it. Like that time, I was damned depressed after my 1st EVER rejection. She helped me through the difficult time and I sort of relied on her and Daryl to support me.
I noticed her for quite some time now, after the DEBRA incident. Everytime I see her face, I would take a mental picture and review it over and over again. This year, during alumni choir practices, there was a time when we were told to shuffle our positions so that we wouldn't be standing with any of our own sections. My heart rate accelerated when Rachel stood beside me. I was like," oh damn! Here comes Rachel. Focus on the song! Focus on the song! Stop getting so distracted!" But I was distracted, because I remember singing incorrectly because I was so conscious of trying not to sing wrongly beside her and therefore messing the whole song up.
Anyway, enough about Rachel. She's an impossible person for me. Only Aloysius, Max, or Daryl has the qualities that suited Rachel. Aloysius and Max has the ability to make her laugh. Daryl is close to her, because they were an item before. Aloysius is also close to her, because he hangs out with her and does stuff with her that only I can dream of doing.
Well, 'nuff said. The above post is just a look into my emotional state.
Peace.]
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