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Wednesday, February 3, 2010 Capt. Athan;

11:03 AM

Stardate 100203.10

Incoming transmission.....

[Hey guys. I'm at ITE simei now, using my e-biz computer to do this. I'm feeling damned depressed right now, because I just found out that debra wants to be a mum, and she's excited about that prospect. Seeing that I will NEVER be debra's BF, let alone husband, I have a sense of deep regret and sadness. I am not good at finding opposites. And I probably never will.

That thought scares me the most. To live a life of solitude is something that I don't want. Just the other day, I saw a couple walking around the mall. The guy was wearing the army uniform and the girl was in civilian clothes. That was how I pictured myself. But I doubt that dream will come true for me

Lord, I know that I have been disrespecting you for the past 15 years or so. But please don't do this to me. It's painful enough that I can't get together with her. Punish me all you want, but not like this. I know this message I'm sending you is too much to ask from someone who doesn't have the faith of a normal catholic, but I ask you to help me cope with the pain. Amen.

As all of you may or may not know, I like a few totally unreachable girls, one of 'em being debra. I.......don't know what else to say.

So, i'm bouncin' out]

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